Sunday, November 25, 2012

I must be crazy.

Okay, seriously. I'm an ass. I realized a while back that I have no idea why I wasted so much time on my ex. And I really can't understand why I would waste my life waiting for him. After I snapped out of my pathetic stage, I wanted to slap myself. He never deserved me anyway. I mean, I'm not perfect, no one is. But I sure as hell deserve more than he ever gave me. So now I am totally and completely over that whole thing. He can go off and do whatever, be with his daddy, whatever it is that he does, and just leave me alone. The trick is getting the rest of my shit from him. He actually tried saying that he wasn't going to honor the divorce papers, like he has a choice. I think his dad has him thinking he actually has power in this situation. His dad is an idiot. Fact is, it is what it is and there is no getting around it. And I'm sure as hell not going to waste a lot of my time dealing with him. If he pushes me I will call the cops and his superiors and let them handle it. I've already started the ball rolling and if I have to roll it off the cliff I will. I just wish he would grow up for five minutes and get this shit over with so I could lose his number and never have to deal with him again. He is way too narcissistic and arrogant for anyone to really want to deal with him, hence him having no friends. The only friends he does have are those that are paid to be around him. I'm glad I'm not one of them. He is fucked in the head and I'm glad I'm gone. He fits in in Maryland, and I'm glad I'm not there either. I'm just glad I woke up and stopped being an idiot before it was too late. I feel soooooo much better now, so much happier. No arrogant ass, self absorbed childish twit holding me back and competing with everything I do. At least now I can be me. Thank GOD.